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Hubby dear...,wish u were by my side with me now.. i'm very sad.. very moody.. Honestly,am i fat as a PIG?? actually i mind on what do people says. Haiiz... i don't feel like eating for my whole life.. till i die..~ i'm so sad.. feel like crying.... actually..my tears flows a lil.. haiiz.. i'm fat! just that whenever i ask people or my friends.. they surely answered me..."nola.. where got... u looks medium size.. just a lil plum/meaty.. "haiiz.. i know they're consoling me.. its ok.. i can take it. haiiz.. i'm gonna proof it!! i must diet till i sucess...~ hate people who criticise nor humiliate me..~ ladies really care for their pride & dignity...~ i do care!! haiiz.. hubby,hope u were here with me.. consoling me... hmmm..

tHe FaCts

hmm.. yesterday,got people come my house to have a look... cause my house is on sale~ Guess what??! my mum told me that d people bought it... rm 360k. confirm!! d people gonna give deposit rm5k by this saturday. hmmm.. my mum told me that we have 6months to leave.. means.. errm.. by 6months times...me n my family gonna shift out.. hmm..as my mum says.. may be me n my family might shift to Puchong in Kl or might be still staying in malacca.. my mum wana open a shop.. do some business thgy.. ermm selling those food thgy kot.. haiiz.. if really shift to puchong arr.. i really gonna miss my hubby freakin' much!! so much!!~

huh... just now i open my friendster... that idiotic guy reply my message.. the way he replied..in a mean way..!! hate him so much!! really!! haiiz.. dun wana care n think about this stOOpid thgy.. its a waste of time!!
hmmp!!

just wana care about my thgy n my hubby! haha.. muakssSSSS!!! =)

FrOwn Smile..

Hye!!
Dear blog...,i'm a lil down.. Just now after my class..,i went home to put some of my thgy..,then i straight went to buy 'mee kari' for my hubby..but too bad..the mamak stall close. After that,i went to Ujong pasir pasar malam..,went to tapau 'kebab daging'..,but the stall havent ready for the food thgy..so end up i bought 'wade'. Later i went to my hubby house..hang out.. Hmm.. i told my hubby every single thgy about d idiotic zack..that wat d zack talked. Haiiz.. in a sudden..my hubby's mood change?? he seems unhappy...some sort..never really talk to me.. he acting cool.. (thats wat my intuition said) haiiz.. i feel so sad.. a frown smile in my heart..but i never really show it out.. Then..,my hubby played guitar..he played afew sad songs..i guess. that makes my tears gonna flow..but i bear it.. i'm an emotional person..thats why my tears flow very fast.. Blog..,i'm sad.. i don't like that situation... *TOOT* that zack lar!! fuckin' zack! really make me mad.. b'coz of him.. me n my hubby had conflict!! URrrgghhH!! sad laa...
hmm.. but after that.. my hubby mood changed dy.. he talked to me.. & he didn't seems unhappy..i guess. Later on..,my hubby went KL..for his business thgy... Wish him all the best!! i'll pray hard for him!! i'll support him..~ Really hope that his business thgy rises & earn alot of dead president..so that can help his mummy..lesser his mummy's burden.
Blog...,wish u could understand...
well...,i really love my hubby!! love him for eternity!!

tales~

here it goes...~

last few days ago..,my mum told me that her bf of whatever.. will give her rm60k.. the rm60k is from the bf insurans..withdraw it out.. hmm.. may be around nx month will get the rm60k.. thats what my mum says... haiiz.. she told me that.. if really got the amount of cash.. she n him.. will open a shop at PUCHONG.. hmm.. might be open a shop la.. selling those food thgy ..ermm may be ice ice food thg ( ex. ice kacang ) or selling those bread n cakes food.. since she's very expert in those thgy.. hmm. then my mum says that.. if really success open a shop... then me n my sibblings will shift to puchong..stay there.. haiiz... i never tell anyone about this..even my friends.. till this thgy really confirm n happen.. then i'll reveal it..
wahh... if really happens arr.. i'll surely miss all my friends especially my teddy laaa... unbelieveable heh!! a sudden lehh..
haiiz..i think i should put this thgy from my mind temperary till it really happens... then i'll think about it again..~ fuuhhhh...

haha~

hmm.. i'm at cyber cafe now..sumwhere nearby my house.. at semabok.. Hehe... today i went out with my teddy!!!~~~~~~~ so long nvr hang out with him & see him already.. gOSh~~ haha.. very happieeEE... we went Mahkota Parade.. went to drink roibo.. he drank stawberry & me..yam milk tea... with pearl!!! syOknya!! we went jalan-jalan around Mp lo.. haha.. i thought today i might not see him.. cause this morning i phone him...to wake him up.. had phone alotz times..but never answer... so i sms my teddy.. tht we hang out someday ..coz he's sleeping..n must be tired.. thts why i must considerate n understand.. hmm.. then not long later.. around 2 something he msg..n asked me whether wana hang out.. haha n there it begins...~ he came to fetch me.. haha muakssSS!!~ miss him laa.. soo happie.. but thats not enough laa.. wanted to spend time longer... but its ok la.. haha =) =) =) hehehe.. bluekk!!

hmm.. i just view my friendster.. & guess wat?? the guy ZACK who is my classmates...send me a msg thru friendster.. guess wat?? he apologised to me alotz times in tht msg.. he said tht he didn't meant to disturb me n telling about his gf n his thgy... & he said tht he don't have the intention to court me... plus..he know i hate him so much.. i wonder how he know that.. must be he view my multiply..thru friendster.. coz i did wrote very 'mean' about him (zack) in my multiply journal.. haha bluekk!! padan muka... yeerr i soo 'mean' ehh.. jahat laa me..~ feel so bad actually. hmm..
thats all for now.. me wana chaoz now..

Ups & dOwNs

Hye!! guess where am i?? hehe..i'm at my campus in my graphic computer lab..doing assignment while surf net.. shhHH..my lecturer doesn't know.. hhaha.. hm.. today was a very very nice weather..so cooling..coz this morning rains heavily..
hmm.. wonder what is my hubby syahreez doing?.. guess he's in class studying while chit chat with his frens kot. hmm.. nowadays..my hubby syahreez..he seems very stress n looks so frustratred.. haiiz.. coz of his business thingy..plus his up-line always presure him..i feel so pity for him.. my hearts really hurt.. Nowadays he gets angry very easily..n hot-tempered.. n sometimes i even get scolded by him.. thats make me down.. a frown smile on my face.. hmm.. but i understand..i don't blame him.. coz i know his situation..he has to run up n down to deal with his business thgy.. Do U know HOw tiring Was thaT?? if i were him..i surely give up already.. i feel helpless n hopeless.. coz cant help him.. but i'll try my best for him.. i'll always be by his side supporting n helping him.. if he had problem..,i'll sit beside him to listen it..although i'm not a good advisor or consoler.. but im a great listener & always lend a hand..thats why many of my frens always seek for me.. hmm.. my hubby problem is also mine too! so i cant let him bear the problem alone.. i know he surely can do well in his business thgy & even his studies too!.. he can do it!! i've faith in him!! truly! i'll alwis be there for him.. 2getha4va!! hubby dear..,as u said.. where there's a will,there's a way.. so dun give up in ur business thgy,aite!! i understand ur situation..i know its tough.. it just need time n patient.. this is life.. its POSSIBLE to success!