Saturday, March 29, 2008

flyer

The "Singapore Flyer"
didn't manage to take a good shot.. quite blurry.
was in the cab.. a far distance from there..

Monday, March 24, 2008

story of a man

There's a man.. around age 60+.. A strong man.. fit looking body. He have a family.. He's a gambler.. but he's very good.. kind hearted man.. and very generous..
He have a mistress too.
First family.. have three daughters.. All of them are around age 30+..married and have family. His daugthers and wife hated him. I have no idea 'why'.. family problem perhaps.
Came to the second family.. the mistress. He have two children.. a daughter and a boy.. they're still studying in primary.. That family broken too.. i mean a broken family.. coz he always gamble.. seldom give money but he still work..
One day, while he's working.. he carried some stocks... the floor is wet.. suddenly he slipped down n fell on the floor and knocked on his back or neck or etc.. He was rushed to the hospital and given an operation..
After the operation.. he turned 'vegetable'.. Aww.. feel so pity and sad for him.. He's still able to speak well.. good memories.. but he cant walk.. He lye down for 2 years.. his children and wives very seldom turn up.. they hated him..
He loses alot of weight.. damn thin.. face..hagged.. just looks like an old man.. very old.
NOW... he's back in the hospital.. He can't live anymore.. the organs is weak.. especially the lungs.. difficulty in breathing.. The family suggested not to give oxygen.. just let him Rest In Peace..
He can't live long now... anytime. I'm going Singapore to see him soon... He's my maternal grand uncle..
sigh... the family should forgive him.. and give him a chance.. everyone deserves second chance.. Nothing is perfect.. I hope he'll rest in peace soon and be a better person in his next life..
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well...,no matter how much my dad did to my mum and the family.. i hated him so much.. then and NOW too.. but forgiveness is upon him..
..thats life rite?.. *wink wink* hahaha

well...,may god bless everyone!
i'll be a better person.. i'll improve myself.. No more old sandra.. aite!

rain

Rain drops is falling on my head..
lalallaa...
ohhh lalalala...
ohhhhh lalala...
lalalallal...

Do you know that.. if u walk under the rain alone..
its romantic..? LOL..
i have no idea..
one thing for sure... i walk under the rain..
there's lots of thing came to my mind...
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..the sweet moments btw me and reez..
when i think about it..
i'll smile while walking.. (ppl sure think i'm nuts)
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..ups and downs..
obstacles which i've been through..
sighh.. thats life rite? its not easy..
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and lastly..
the problems i'm facing now...
fuhh.. stress..
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
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i'm finding ways to get $$$. =P
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chill.. just chill.. yeap,i'm chilling.. =)
..haha..


Sunday, March 09, 2008

make up??

Hello!
This afternoon i ride scoot to Mahkota Parade for a job interview.. i got the job! hmm..not gona work at Xuan Cafe dy.. Pheww! i told the ppl dy. cancel.
So regarding about my new job.., i NEED to MAKE UP!! OMG MAKE UP???!!! sh*t! i don't know how to make up at all.. Recently jaime n sarah taught me a simple 'make up'.. on eyes. Haha.. then they did it for me.. & i learn how to do as well.. After that we went yum cha.. then i went to 7 eleven buy top-up card.. then sum guys was looking at me.. omg.. i shy.. Do i look weird or pretty? LOL. but i think i looks not bad la.. since the guy siap can smile at me n treat me well worr.. SS la me. =p
Well,i'm gonna start my new job this week.. part time.. Weekdays work 6pm-10pm while Weekends 8 1/2 hours. pheww!
Any clue tht where i work?? lingerie shop?? condom shop?? apparel?? ice cream??
wana know the answer? come haunt for me! if got jodoh,surely meet.. =p

Friday, March 07, 2008

mammals - warm blooded

..is that an end??

sigh.. i've never felt this way before.. Everything that i do reminds me of you.. Ohh GOD,did u hear my prayer?? i feel so weak.. i have no spirit to go on.. People said.. "Be Optimistic".. i can't.. its difficult.. if they're in my shoes..i'm sure they understand..

We're made for each other.. Don't you think so? after years being together.. do you feel the same way as me,now?

I never thought that i do need you there.. when I have problems..etc. and the words i need to hear to always get me through the day and make it okay..
I fell off from my bike jz now.. outside a petrol station..the semen floor is oily n slipperly..didn't notice..bcoz there's sumthg up in my mind.. my tears flow.. no injuries.. and..,Whats came up on my mind is y.o.u .. but i didn't make a call.. Its my stuff..,i've to learn to handle it.

The days feel like years when I'm alone.. i miss you.. i really do miss you. Sadly,it can't be repair nor turn back the time..
The last time you leave me..driving away..I keep looking till theres no sign off u.. Seeing you leaving/driving off from me.. the rain pours heavily,it hurts.. seems like a knife stab in my heart deeply.. & i sat down hopelessly at the carporch for sometime.. Can you see how much my love for you..?

All I ever wanted was for you to know everything I do with sincere.., I give my heart and soul.. I can't hardly breathe.., I need to feel you here with me.. the pieces of my heart are missing you.. No one can replace You in my heart..

I can't sleep.. its already 4.o1am.. there's so many things in my mind.. Ahh.. that's all i can express/confess.. wish to express more.. but i couldn't make it.. Feeling so empty now..

craps

Exam around da corner.. Urghh..!! damn! have to study.. but aint got the study mood yet.. i think i wana take a break after my mid term.. Go Holiday.. i need fresh air.. I'm gasping for air now... HAHA..
Hey hey.. Remember the poem "Sonnet 18??" nice huh.. but heard that William Shakespears wrote it to his "gay partner".. Awww.. too bad.. gays! haha.. but still true love wehh.. so sweet..

hm.. Anyone watch Singapore Chinese drama? i wana recommend a drama.. its damn nice!! "TWO thumbs UP"! the title is " Mars VS Venus.. fuah!! thats the BEST show i hv ever watched. Damn good.. its about Family problem.. Lovers.. all about life.. those conflicts..those lovey dovey n etc. Each episodes i watched..,my tears flow.. haha.. emo eh..

its over??

Thursday, March 06, 2008

sandra talk..

hey ya! hmm.. later 9.30pm.. im going to Xuan Cafe for an interview.. a job interview.. part time job. hehe.. wana earn sum cash while kills my time.
Last Saturday i went to 'Simply Fish' Restaurant..a job interview as well.. they called me up 2days ago.. but i never turned up.. coz the pay is very low.. rm3.50 per hour le. While Xuan Cafe..i think he/she offers rm4 /4.50 per hour. hehe.. i hv no idea la.. One of my classmate introduce to me. He works at there too.. as a singer. lol. hehe..
Xuan Cafe is a "cina" place.. i guess every1 speaks mandarin there.. Well,wht can i do.. i need $$$.. force to work ler.. as long as the pay is high n i satisfied..then it'll be alright.. hopefully. =)
Actually i thought of working in bars.. *laughing* example.. ''the cube? the office? pure bar?? LOL.. wht a JOKE! the pay there is high..frm wht i heard la.. rm5++ per hour.. haha..

Sighh.. time fly very very SLOW... hmm..my daily routine.. as usual.. mon,wed,thurs & fri.. sleep-->wake up-->go class for an hour-->balik-->do NTG. While d other days.. i ROT at home.. wht a pity.. =p haha..

Wehh..,good news weii... i lose weight already.. seems like tht 'Herbalife' works! haha.. so happieee.. Don't jealous ya..i'm gona be PRETTY soon..& SEXY! ..then can attract lots of guys! WAHAHAHA...LOL! *dreaming* shh... give me face la.. don't laugh,k. haha. Sometime we need to dream.. then it will success mah.. heheheee..

Wednesday, March 05, 2008

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Where is the LOVE??
What's LOVE??
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LOVE drives me crazy
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LOVE makes me blind
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LOVE makes me LOVE him ( ? )
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LOVE hurts me
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LOVE makes me breathe
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LOVE change me
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LOVE is the power for everythg ( ? )
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LOVE makes me envy
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LOVE...
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LOVE...
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LOVE...
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What can i say....? LOVE...
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*sigh*
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*moody*

Monday, March 03, 2008

Q & A

HOW ARE YOU TODAY?? - sux! not in a mood!
WHAT DID YOU DO TODAY?? - 1.went to class. 2.call sum1..but hv been rejected. 3.had a conflict.
WHAT DO YOU FEEL?? - pissed off.. sad..
WHAT'S YOUR PLAN TOMORROW?? - i hv no idea.. just let it be.. & ZZzZzzzZzz....
WHAT'S THE MOST THING U HATE ABOUT?? - Hate being lied!
DO YOU WANT TO SPEAK OUT/CONFESS/... ?? - Definately. i'm so upsad.. very upsad.. =( i feel like crying...
DO YOU THINK 'TRUE LOVE' EXIST?? - i hv no idea. Its very difficult to find a 'true love' in this universe now.. MEN cheat on LADIES.. LADIES cheat on MEN.. (NOT me) etc etc.. I did believe 'true love' but.. i also duno la.. i'm afraid of being 'hurt'..
DESCRIBE YOURSELF (personality/physically/..) - Physically - short..dark..ugly..fat. Personality - emotional.. luv to cry.. easily hurt.. soft hearted =P .. & lovey-dovey..


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