BLANKO!

Dear blog..,i'm not in a mood again... in a sudden,i feel so sad.. haiiz.. lonely..so lonely..i've nobody..
Moreover,i'm sick now.. i didn't tell anyone nor take medicine.. my face is so red.. suffering.. life's so complicated.. haiiz.. haiiz.. haiiz... haiiz.. aint a clue wat to write.. my mind is ..blanko~
huhh... me now wearing specs.. Err.. i'm so tired.. just can't wait for my sem break.. really looking forward to it. haiiz.. wish i'm not living in this world.. told myself to be strong..i just can't do it.

-n-

waiting for the sun to rise...

Urghh... i'm sick!!! my right eye red in colour..swollen. plus,i had a flu.. huhh.. not in a mood..
gosh.. just now after my class.. while i was riding scooter on my way home.. i almost crash into a car!! that damn car larr.. suddenly stop.. goshh...thank god i noticed & quickly press my break. phewW!!
hmmm...i love this song..so meaningful..'never be replaced' by first lady.. 'baby i love you..i'll never let you go.. all the love we make can never be erased & i promised you that you'll never be replaced..i love u...bla bla bla. hehe that song is dedicated to my teddy!!

Miss your original daily personalities...

-hope to see you smiling again..

-your laughter..

- the happy-go-lucky ones..

-always crack up jokes..

-makes people around you happy..

- not easily get frustrated/angry..

-seldom raise your voice..

Really miss it!!! Sad..,being see you stress & tension.. really pity you.

By the way, Hubby... ALL THE BEST in ya final!! you can do it!! i'll pray for you,aite!!

Little vOices..

Ey there!! Guess what??! darleen got boyfriend already!!! 'hey gurl,CONGRATS!!' just now i chat with her.. she told me about that. i was so surprised.. feel so happie for her! Finally she has a bf..& goes on those dates thingy.. hehe. great job leen!! wish u luck in ya relationship, aite!!
Oo yea, dannii is coming back on the 1st October..,she confirm quiting her job,she can't take it.. She planned to go TARCollege..taking Mass communication course.. might be enrol this december intake. hmm 4th Oct is her b'day..coming soon. gosh..,i'm gonna out of money.. Urgh,October.. tsk tsk tsk..*shake head* 3 of my frens b'day.. dannii.. siew chin.. & jaime.. i'm broke arrg!(ahemm..eeheee.. a month to go...)* muahaha..
haiiz... missing someone right now.. i've never see him for quite sometime already..miss him much.. He's very busy with his studies & bness.. *praying hard for his success* pray for his final.. pray for his bness as well !! u can do it!! As u say,nothing is impossible.

There's a proverb for u ---> "Rome was not built in a day"
Err..nothing much to talk.. wana take my bath now.. later wana do assignment. waa..this friday i got intro in graphic design quiz!!~

*still missing someone*

Movin' on

Actually today was a really bored day.. there's no outing..so dead bored.. So,i message siok hua.. ajak her go jusco..
we went there at around 9sumthg pm..went to bought leen's bday present..
After that..,we went to durian daun mamak.. went to have our supper..a lil hungry mah..
While was waiting for leen to meet us.. i saw syahreez enter d mamak area..& park his car.. fuhh..i feel so happie when i saw him! but he didn't realise us.. I guess when he realise us was when leen walk heading to me n siok hua.. i asked leen to come over..coz' wana give her bday present.. then syahreez saw kot. haha.. after that he came over & sat with us..chit chating.. Hmm..actually i was quite down today.. but when i saw him.. i feel so.. fuuhh.. can't describe.. so happie! Syahreez said i purposely came to durian daun.. but actually is true.. i really wanted to see syahreez.. if syahreez didn't notice me..i dun mind..As long as i saw him..i feel so relieved & happie.. i really love him.. miss him alots!! so long never hang out & chit chat on d fon already. haiiz..
Ohh yea..just now saw syahreez had alotz money around rm400 kot..he got his this month money..his bness money. wahh.. i guess he's very happie with it.. I'm happie for him too.. i really pray hard for him.. & at last he succeed.. feel so glad!
Hmm.. syahreez final exam is soon.. very soon.. wish him best of luck!! i'll pray for u! study hard & smart!! by the way...,i'm looking forward for ur sem break.. hopefully we can hang out.. hehe..

A walk to remember

hey.. just now went out with my frens.. went to crystal bay..eat ikan bakar..nearby teluk mas.. celebrate darleen's birthday.. tomorrow there's no outing for us...coz' leen celebrating birthday with her mum..she has the same bday as her mum.. Like mother like daughter. hmm.. tmr..i'm gonna be dead bored..
Around 10somethg pm i message syahreez..,he had a headache..but he has to go on deal with his bness thgy.. pity him. Nowadays he's quite busy.. we even never chit chat on the phone already..Miss him so much! Wish that i could turn back the past.. when we first met.. the dates'.. spend time together. All those memories are still so fresh in my mind..so clear..i can remember it completely. hmm..Its different now.. i've to understand him.. & i really did understand him! actually i'm afraid of sumthg.. coz now he's very busy with his bness & studies...i'm afraid he want to break up with me..honestly. I've faith in us.. but i really scared.. if that happens.. i can't take it.. who knows..i might commite suicide..no jokes dude! i'm really scared.. nowadays syahreez seldom phone me.. & if we chit chat on d phone..before hang up d phone..he didn't say love u..& muaks.. thats even makes me think negatively.. i'm scared..seriously.. i even cried afew times. blog,i'm afraid..i'm scared.. Blog,i really love him so much! this is the first time..of me myself loving a guy.. even love him so deeply. haiiz.. how?? i can't ease myself. I dare not tell syahreez about this.. if not ..i scared he angry n say i dun understand him. but i really did understand him,truly!! If possible.. i wana help him a lil in his bness thgy..i feel helpless..helpless girl... i tried my very best dy.
i feel so down.. miss him so much!!
*missing syahreez*

In tHe sHadOw..

this morning i woke up around 8sumthg in the morning.. early rite? hehe.. i cook japanese food.. was rushing to make it.. coz' around 10 sumthg darleen coming to pick me.. we went to school for a visit.. back to old days skool..~ there are alotz of changes in school.. such as,the building was painted..nice colour!! i feel odd when i enter school.. err..not a clue. Miss my school life so freakin' much.. most of the memories were from there... Where all begins.. friendship.. Hmm.. went to school.. me,darleen & jaime.. 3 of us only.. We plan to have our lunch in da' school canteen..yum!! yum!! but too bad.. most of the food was sold out!~ sad case.. So after that..,we went to meet some of our ex-teachers.. pn.chin..econs, mr.ngim..add maths, pn.maslimun..BM, pn.kong..our most favourite english teacher! haha.. she still remember me!! can't believe! she called me 'sandra bullock'.. muahaha.. Haiiz.. i feel so pity for pn.lee hui ying..she got uterus cancer..2nd stage dy..she's our ex-geografi teacher f3. teacher,hope u get well soon..& as fit as a fiddle!
nothing much going on today.. went to class.. fuhh.. kinda tired & bored..i'm frozen in the class..so freakin' cold! seems like in north pole. urghh..sick of riding scoot.. coz' the weather is so hot hot hot!! i've turn dark..alotz!! no jokes.. sad case ler.. i've no choice..thats the one & only transportation.. mm..tmr i got class.. *tired*.. i'm looking forward for my break.. can't wait.. but don't know when.

ohh yea.. jz now my mum told me that.. this saturday she have to go to the lawyer office..to sign the contract? agreement? with the buyer of my house.. means that..yay!! confirm that my house sold out!! sooner my mum will get the house money..but in a moment will get 5% only. then my mum told me that..she wana find out the air ticket price for going 'HongKong' disneyland.. she planned to bring me n my sibblings to 'disneyland' this coming early november..might be some of my relatives joining.. i'm not really that happy if confirm go 'disneyland'..coz' it falls on november.. somewhere my bday!! i wana celebrate my bday with someone special..!! Err,i think d 'disneyland' tour..surely tak jadi.. sure cakap-cakap angin only..coz' last few years back,my mum said wana bring me & sibblings to Australia..but end up..no. Hmm.. Although my house sold out dy..,my mum calculate..that the amount of money is not enough..coz' owed alotz banks..loan..mortgage.. which means that my family will still have financial problem although d hse sold & get d money..its not enough. haiiz.. i feel so down everyday.. looks happy..but deep in my heart isn't.

boo.. boo..~

Went to mp with syahreez just now...hehe.. we both bought a bag.. a sling bag.. its quite reasonable.. 2 bags for rm30..!! kewl!! plus,its branded leh! hmm.. after buying.. we went to starbucks.. went to have a drink.. syahreez drank ice blended caramel while me..ice blended green tea!! fuyooh.. syioknya!! dun jealous tau!! haha.. hmm..its syahreez treat.
Guess what?? last night he told me about his b'ness thgy.. his b'ness thgy his getting better & better.. improving.. & he might be getting his cheque nx month.. so proud of him!! hehe.. he must be waiting for this moment... "Well done hubby!! great job!! big hug for ya' *HUG* "

hmm.. & to jaime.. "CONGRATULATION for ya' graduation in MAS today!!" sorry'ya,i can't attend.. hope u understand..i've class. I know u offer me a lift to follow u last sunday.. but i can't..,coz monday..class. i can't skip my class.. not good..u know.
err.. this saturday is darleen's b'day.. not a clue to get what for her.. 'craking my head'.. she's a lil cerewet?? i guess.. choosy. she's so rich.. seems like..she has everything. hmm.. heard from vickie that.. nowadays alotz of guys are 'after her' (darleen)... get wat i mean?? court her.. fuyooh..!!!~ Jaime... haiiz.. she's so love sick.. in lim quoak wei?? haiiz.. she's so into him.. sometimes she purposely drive pass by his house & his dad's shop.. PHEW!!~ haha.. this is girls personality.. its normal la.. hmm..when i hang out with her..she surely tell me about da' guy.. haha shhhHH!! but actually i'm also one of her.. sometimes i tell my fren that my bf..so good.. n etc. haha.. i used to compliments about my bf ..to my frens. Siok hua too! hmm.. girls who are in love.. have weird personality.. i wonder why?? Blog,do u agree?? hahaha..

=)

BoO!!!~ hehe...
hmm.. i just came back from mp,*dating*? with syahreez.. hehe.. Actually last night i was mad at him..,(come on sandra..,its just a tiny problem) coz' he some sort 'fly my kite'..but its ok la.. he apologised to me n explain it.. i forgive..i didn't mad at him already..i've to understand his situation.
hmm.. Although we spend time for a short moment.. but its enough for me..i'm satisfied.. He had played his role..*clap clap* (thanx!!) MuakssSSS!!! =)

fuhh..tomorrow onwards.. i can't skip my class.. i must really attend.. cannot be lazy pig.. *zZzZzZz* .. God had help me ways to gave me proper education..& my loan approved! so i must study hard.. hmm.. some of my subjects..have test..exam.. in subjective form..*waa scary* haiiz.. i'm very free.. i wana study..read some books.. but d books haven't out yet.. so wat can i do?? sheesh..daily routine.. back frm class.. then watch tv & zZzZzZz.. hahaha.. 'L' = lame!!

Omg!! this afternoon my nanny's daughter phoned me..she asked about my studies.. phew.. but my nanny never ask from me the $350 that i owe.. last time my nanny told me that..,d $350..anytime can return to her..no hurry. My mum promised me to help me pay her back d $350.. but haven't..coz' just now i asked from my mum..,she said..not now..she doesn't have enough money..& financial is quite tight.. huhh.. aiya.,i need to ask from my mum $100 for my monthly college fee..haven't pay yet.

*miss & love syahreez*

saturday

hmm.. lets see...
today i went to mp.. with jaime n vickie.. jaime fetch us there.. went to search for darleen's b'day present.. but end up.. with empty handed.. but haha.. i bought a 'purse'.. Wah at last i got a 'purse'.. really girlish purse..it cost rm40.. fuh.. thats my allowance!! now i left a lil sum of money already. later on.. i went to syahreez's house.. brought him 'famous amos' cookies n bread.. hehe.. After that..,around 7sumthg.. me ,jaime, vickie went to GYM.. get some exercise.. burn our fats.. When we arrived there.. Let's get it started baby.. Guess wat?? the gym closed at 8pm.. & we arrived there around 7.40pm.. fuhh..so,we didn't go for it. End up we went to have our dinner at a food court.. haha.. today i ate claypot rice!! fuh..so long nvr eat a bowl food. later.. me n jaime went to vickie's house.. chillin' at there.. till around 11pm then balik~

hmm.. wonder what is syahreez doing now?? surely..after the function already.. & now.. surely go yam cha with his b'ness frens & prospects.. i miss him so much ler.. i don't know why.. although i saw him dy. must be we so long never spend time together.. really miss the moments.. i miss him laaa... miss him like crazy..
Aiks??!!! he just phone me!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha.. he coming to fetch me.. go out makan.. yay!! miss the moments!! ~
urghh!! actually.. never go out... duhh!! make me syiok only. forget it la.

hubby!!! muax!!~

Hubby

i miss u so much!! miss u!! miss u!! miss u!!

i love u so much!!

really wanna see you...

miss hanging out with you..

i love u!!!!

*i just can't stop thinking & missing you*

muaksssssssssss!!!!!~

Hubby,u must achieve ur goals & strive hard for ya study & b'ness,aite!!

i'll alwis & alwis pray hard for u & even support u,alwis!!!

Muakssss!!!

*feeling blue*

hmm...my pc monitor repaired dy.. n now i'm using it. i just came back from syahreez house.. he went to bk.beruang to find his prospect..

Blog.., i don't know what happen to me... everyday..i'm moody... must be my p.m.s kot.. haiiz.. ain't in a mood lerr.. black sheep gurl. fuuh!

errm.. that monday..,syahreez told me that.. he had to concentrate in his study n his b'ness as well.. so he need to 'put me aside'.. numsayin'?? 'put me aside'... he said.. he 'have' to.. he doesn't want to loss both of it.. means his study & b'ness.. he wana make his mum proud. haiz.. at first when i heard the sentence 'put me aside'.. it seems like 'break'.. so actually..i misunderstood.. haizz.. i cried leh.. i really did understand.. n i did 'more understand' it deeply.. wat can i say?? hmm..the day after he told me.., n here it goes.. (the daily routine) tapau mee curry n bring it to his house during his break.. after that,went to class.. n didn't meet him dy.. but he'll gimme a call every late night when he's free dy..this goes on for weekdays.. i didn't msg nor give him a call,coz i don't wana disturb him.. hmm..i guess on weekends we not gonna meet,coz' he got b'ness function on saturday while sunday surely meet his prospects.., the whole week is occupied.. i don't blame syahreez.., but hope he understand as well.......
Tremendously,i don't hope for more.. nor greed for it. just praying hard that he success in his study n b'ness..,& i wont be put aside. hmm.. his semester break is nx month..i guess. break for a month.. might be hoping that..he could spare a lil... during his sem break.. get it??

hubby..,if u're reading.. just wanted to tell u that.. i really understand.. & i trust u!

*praying hard for u*

ohh yea..

<-------- this pic was taken during merdeka eve..

me & syahreez at 'sri percik restaurant'

( looking great ) haha..

Ohh.. my~

hye!! i'm back!!! haha.. hmm.. me at cc now with my hubby syahreez!!!!~ hehehe.. just now went to Kota laksamana eat da ice ice thgy.. this baba.. hmmp! hehe..

hmm.. last saturday..,around 1 sumthg am.. me was on da phone with syahreez.. he just came back yam cha with his business frens at durian daun.. he's quite frustrated with his frens.. i mean business thgy frens la. haiiz.. n his up-line too!! most of them thinks that he never really work hard on his business thgy... haiiz.. but actually he did!! i know! coz' almost everyday he went to find his prospects!!~ its not easy leh.. he have to run up & down.. & persuade his prospects.. haiiz.. tiring~ Moreover..,his b'ness frens.. keep bugging him! keep err.. some sort like pushing him..push till no limit! damn!! Urggh.. they should understand mahh.. haiiz.. then syahreez got a lil arguement with his b'ness frens kot.. haiiz... when i heard he express his problem.. plus he's not feeling well.. i feel so sad.. heart hurts ler.. no jokes la dude!! nevermind la dear..,miracle happens.. & your day will soon arrive... it takes time... remember..have faith in yourself!!~ i'll pray for ya'!