10 November

yup yup!! its 10 November..!! its my birthday!! my last year of teen.. i'm 19 rite now..! wana enjoy to the fullest.. if possible. Mm.. I didn't expect much for my birthday..wishes is enough to brighten up my day..!! I just woke up from my nap.. its raining heavily rite now.. Rain? it makes me feel so relaxing... & sumtimes moody.. don't know why.. haha nature.. Sighh.. During my nap..i had a bad bad dreams..!!! can't stated all about it.. privacy.. LOL! since i woke up from my nap..i WIPE my tears... i cried alot.. in my dreams..but the tears flow in reality.. Goshh.. making me uneasy rite now.. Wonder why suddenly i'll dream all those.. hmmp.. bad omen la.. =( *Gob Bless Me* touch wood.. please don't happen in reality.. sob..sob..
I've received birthday wishes from my dear friends..its countable..jaime, leen, siok hua, sarah, vickie, kee, pek shan & lastly my ns fren (yuan2)... n my mama. thats all. sad case rite..? so little.. told cha' i don't have many friends.. trust me wei..i really don't have any friends..except u gurls.. In my college,i'm always alone.. my frens in my college was my 'hi bye friends' only.
Owh ya, At 12am today.. the first person who called me..was my dear reezy..(thanks dear..muax!)*hee.. Hmm.. i really appreciated all those wishes..especially from my close friends.. (do u want me to name out again..?) ok.. jam,leen,vkie,siok hua,sarah,kee. thanks yo! love u gurls lots!! started to realise again..that my friends are important to me.. see.. they remember my 'big day'.. feeling so fortunate rite now.. At least i know they'll always be there for me.. that what are friends for.. rite? hee..
Last night went to MP jalan-jalan with reez.. hee* (spending sum time with together esp. for my big day) LOL!
to be continue..

GosHhhh...!!! Last night was a tremendous wonderful night..!! (10/11) Reez brought me to 'Hotel Equatorial' to have dinner..(bday celebration) Isn't that romantic..?? yeap!! Damn happy.. Thanks dear..Lovin' you lots!! After movie,me & ReEz went to watch midnight movie.."Death Note" goshh.. damn nice wei that movie..!!! Peps out there..don't miss this movie.. its Nice.. satisfaction guaranteed.. huhuu..~
>ReEz<Thanks for that wonderful night.. You've brighten up my life.. Owh..During that dinner.. i keep smilling.. & that makes me can't express..... coz i was too happy..surprised.. thats why i'm speechless & SHY! *hee.. =) Dear,thanks.. thanks alot!! Love you much..'i know.. You LoVe me More!!
yeap!! thats all for today..!! WoOoohOOoooOOo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm lovin' it!!

"Opps!! D.I.E.T time...!!!" LOL! -peace-

POEM - love

When thy eyes touched mine
for the very first time
I knew it would be forever
That we were meant to stay together
And I had to keep my faith
Because my only love sprung from my only hate

For thou I was lying here
In this cold and dark place
Thy voice I was supposed to hear
But our dream became our disgrace
Why could not thou wait for a little while?
For I would wake up and smile

I can not stop my tears now
As my eyes try not to see thee
Oh, love could not be more wise to me!
With thy dagger I make a vow:
By taking this breaf life
I shall always be thy hopeless wife.

lalala

nowadays i feel so ALIVE..!!!!!!!!!!!!! huhuuu.. its soon.. its around the corner... i'm lookin' forward to it.... =) =) =) yeepeeee!!!!! chow..~

WeEeee!!~

Weeeee!!~ Finally i got a new scooter!!! Goodbye my o'Naza scooter!! miss u much!! thanks for the 2 years of ride! heee...
By the way, wishing 'Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Fitri' & Maaf Zahir Batin... to "ReEz & family" & to those who celebrates hari raya! -peace-

hmm..?

Woit!! i got my PC back!! Recently brought it to re-format.. Now it has turn to 'apple'..!!! woohOoooOO!!! thanx to ReEz & his bRo!! yup yup!!! sighh..my mum went back already.. whenever she went back..i feel so.. err.. 'berat hati'.. feel like crying..? sob..sob.. =( Gonna be bored again.. bored..bored..bored..
Oh ya.. Missing my HoMiez.. so long never hang out with them.. the last time i saw them was.. hm.. let me think.. OHhh.. sending leen off..at KLIA!
Weh..,my mum discourage me to further my studies to degree ler.. How le..? she wants me to work.. She said its such a waste of time studying..for people like me. ( means people like me 'bodoh'..,should go WORK! ) aihz.. don't know ler.. Should i further my degree? or not..? Well, i'm not gonna think about it till i finish my Diploma..i've still long way to go..A year! hmm..Just let it be.. see how it goes la...,k? Daa~

WaAaaaaaaaaaaaAAa!!! my mid-term exam is around da corner..!! i'm dying!!!

macam-macam ada..

Last night i had my dinner at 'Amigo'(sunday-8 oct) with my family.. mum, sibblings, aunt, uncle n cousins.. & lastly.. ReEz!! huhuu... MY FAMILY!!! yUmMm!!!
My mum invited ReEz for dinner..! Its my Bro 21st Birthday last night! ReEz first time had his dinner with MY FAMILY.. he was quite scared..shy..nervous?? haha.. chill la my dear.. Everything went smoothly.. We are ONE.. A FAMILY!! yeap..yeap!! After dinner,me & ReEz went to Megamall jalan-jalan*..(to leen>wehh,i'll snap some pics of megamall n send to ya.. but err..actually megamall..is still in process ler..not really complete yet..& not many shops lehh..uncool? haha) hee.. =) yeap!!
hmm.. i ate alot these few days..gaining weight..?! (aiyer me FAT alot..my mama said..i looks like AUNTIE..especially my ASS..so BIG macam AUNTIE..AUNTIE who dressed up simple & sell vegetables in market! 'hey..vege vege..cheap cheap..come buy!! *haha..)
I'm quite happy.. i got my N70 & my digital camera!!! wEeeee!!~
My mum going back this Wednesday..sighh..so fast.. She'll be back again a month later..means DECEMBER!! gosh..so long.. & she won't be here for my birthday.. =( hmm..its ok la! i'm fine with that.
Owh ya,i guess i'm gonna get a new scooter soon.. very soon.?! hehe..

till then.. continue next time-

HATE ME TODAY!

Was very lonely for these few days.. when i'm isolated/lonely.. i'll start bugging/messaging/calling my bf.. & he'll get annoyed/irritated...then he'll scold me..& i'll start CRYING..hiding myself in the room..& cried.. after that,i'll take my scooter.. & ride almost half of Malacca..scooter ride*.. all alone.. just to release sadness..stress..etc.
Its 1.30am now..Actually,i just came back from Scooter ride*.. sighh.. was just scolded by my bf several hours ago.. very sad.. I'm so not used to the environment of..boredom..lonely/isolated.. I wish that my mum is staying in Malacca.. Missing her so much!! if that happens..i won't bug anyone when i'm bored/isolated..coz' my mum is there.. Whenever my mum is there..i won't feel bored..coz' i can tag her along wherever she goes when im bored..Is not that me & my mum very close..is that..Duno how to explain.. err.. its like..when she going out..then i tag along..coz' i dont really like to be Close up at home..doing ntg.. meanwhile..i can take a stroll or car ride.. numsayin'..??
SANDRA..i'm a person who don't like to be scold..i'm soft in the inner but external..tough. that's why..i'm an emotional person..who pours the rains easily. Moreover,i'm a negative minded person..when something sad that happens to me..i always thought of commite suicide..& i tried to do it..but FAILED!! Am i weird?!
sighh.. i hate to have conflict with my bf..! thats the most sadness i'll have. WHY most sadness? coz he's the person that i love the most..he's my everything! whenever we have conflict..we never really contact each other for just sometime..but my finger ITCHY*..always grab the mobile..& half-hearted..whether to contact or not.. I know..end up..i contact. Feel like crying now.. Is there anyone who can lend a shoulder to me now..?? Reez..i really love you..lots! from the bottom of my heart!absolutely can't denied.. i don't mean to bug nor have conflict with you.. Do you know that,whenever we've conflict.. i cried. no lie. thats the tears of a girl who's so deeply in love..thats the truth! oh ya,i know you don't like me to be jiwang-jiwang.. but for this time..i really want to express my feelings.Yeap! ReEz..,sorry for keep repeating those mistakes..i know you are sick of that..Thanks for co-operate & bear with me.. I'm gonna make it sure for real..that..i won't & will never ever did that AGAIN! cross my heart ' swear to god ' down on my knees to you...

*To those readers & reez..if you read this post..guess you'll think i'm nuts & too JIWANG.. but what i wrote..was truly from my heart..suara hati*

signning off, BIG FAT LOSER SANDRA

tomorrow will be a New day...

tsk..tsk..tsk.. *LOL*

DAMN!!!! last two days.. while i was driving on my way to ReEz house... i was stop by two policemen... WHY?! coz... i drove through the traffic light which was 'RED'... *LOL* jahat ehh me... before i drove through.. i looked around already... then after passing by.. *lalala*.. suddenly a police kancil car was right behind me... *WOW* that was FAST!! just a blink.. then all of the sudden came out a police car.. hish!!! then i stop somewhere at the bukit baru taman.. & the policeman asked for my license... WaaAaa!! he said that.. he want to summon* ME!! goshhh.. i was terrified!! (i cannot kena summon ler..,coz once i kena..my license straight kena BATAL!!)then i told him.. 'selesai tepi la..' 'selesai tepi la..' guess what he said..? BERAPA NAK BAGI??! & i gave him RM50!! damn!! flew off dy my money!! sob..sob.. Jahat mia police!! purposely wana freak me out.. aihz... what to do.. i've broke the traffic rules.. =(

KL..KL..the Big City Of Dreams...!!

Me came back from Kuala Lumpur last night around 1 something in the morning.. supposed to arrive Melaka around 11pm but reez was very sleepy & tired while driving at the highway..so we drop by at Seremban R & R to take a nap and have our supper there. Pity Reez.. he was so tired..he drove alot.. & his foot was 'bengkak' due to shopping...coz' we walked alot.
That Tuesday Morning..went to pick Jaime,Vickie & Huey Ying to KLIA... Reez drove quite fast..coz afraid we can't make it to meet Leen.. PhewW!! thank god we make it!! Guess What??! when we arrive there.. Once we came out from the car.. All of us ran heading to the 'Departure area'.. *hahaha* While running...,Reez accidentally bang the car 'side mirror.. OUCH!! thats hurt!! Me & Reez were encouraging each other to run faster.. Run!! Faster..!!!! While Jaime,Vickie & Huey Ying were ahead of us already.. Goshh.. its like a Drama Movie..running in the airport heading to meet our Precious Friend.. nice moment la.. too bad we don't have video cam to shoot it.
Finally we reached.. & we met leen..spent afew minutes with her..& shot some pics too! *will upload the pics soon*
After that,its time for Leen to leave.. all of us walked her to the 'Departure entrance'.. before she enter..we shot one last pic with her & her KL friends too! after that,we hugged her &...... my tears started to flow... following by VicKie... *shy la* hahaha... *missing you,leen*
After sending her off..,we took our breakfast at McDonald,KLIA.
On our way back to Bukit Jalil..we got LOST!!! so..we planned to drop vickie at subang,INTI college..coz' she was late for class. After dropping vickie off.., we got lost AGAIN!!! until masuk Shah Alam.. So we asked for directions to Bukit Jalil... n finally... WeEeEEE!!! dah sampai!!! *heee* Later on.. Me,Reez,Jaime & Huey ying went to Midvalley megamall.. to have our lunch n shopping!!!(Jaime,thanks for the treat!!)after that.. jaime n huey ying went back.. so me & Reez went to Bukit bintang..SHOPPING!!! & the day after that.. me & Reez went to One Utama..SHOPPING AGAIN!! SHOP till We DROP!! we shop alot la.. *wink wink* =) hee...


*p/s:sorry for some errors..i'm not good at blogging*

NOKIA N70

LOOK AT THIS MOBILE PHONE!!!!!!!! It's NOKIA N70..N SERIES!! CoOl ryte??!! it's a '3G' phone bebehh!! huhuu...~ By early of next month i'll be getting that NOKIA N70!!! WoHoOOooOoooOOO!!!!!!!!! My mum coming back early of next month and she'll give me that N70 mobile phone!! Goshh!!! lalala...i'm on top of the world!!hmm.. but if i've the NOKIA N73 even better..its 'Carl Zeis' Optics..goshh it cost RM3k lehh.. damn expensive! mm.. =P

SPECIFICATIONS (N70)

Technical
Network: GSM 900 / 1800 / 1900 / WCDMA 2100
Form Factor: Block / Symbian OS 8.1
Dimensions: 109 x 53 x 22 mm
Weight: 126 g
Antenna: Internal
Talk Time:3.50
Standby Time: 264
Memory: 30 MB
Expandable Memory: RS-MMC
Main Screen: 262000 colors (TFT) 176 x 208 px
Camera: 2 MP / 1600 x 1200 px / 20X Zoom / Flash / Self-Timer / Video Recorder

Audio - Multimedia
MP3 Player, FM Radio, Speakerphone, Push-To-Talk, Ring Tones(64 chord / MP3), Streaming Multimedia(RealPlayer)
Wallpapers & Screen Savers: 176 x 208 px
Games: J2ME

Messaging
SMS, MMS, EMS, Email(POP3 / IMAP4 / SMTP), Chat

Applications
Calculator, Calendar, Wap(2.0 / Opera), To-Do List, Voice Commands

Connectivity
Bluetooth, High-Speed Data(EDGE / GPRS (Class 10), PC Sync

..days..

Been quite busy lately.. Hmm.. Leen is leaving soon..few days to go.. i wonder how she feel..? exicited? sad..? i'm gonna miss her..
Dude..,Lets not say "GOODBYE".. Unless we promise to say "HELLO" again,soon.. =( I've make something SPECIAL..VALUABLE..PRICELESS.. 'a little something for you to treasure'.. its still in process.. Me & ReEz stay up late to 'create' it for the past few days.. Thanks ReEzy dear..you've contribute alot!
Ohh ya,..don't worry,i'm giving those things to all my ciaobellaz friends too..You gurls are not forgotten.. [CIAOBELLAZ-->"there's always a place in my HEART!!"]
Hmm.. i'm putting on weight..have lots of appetite nowadays.. Eat alot.. Fast FOOD the most. hee.. Yesterday i went to TEAM hair studio.. Guess What?! i've High-lighted my HAIR!!! muahaha.. don't worry..its 'medium brown'.. Chill! i still looks like LOCAL MODERN 'ah mo'..*LOL*.. pHewW!! not typical chinese..'ah lian'la! yucks!! =P

Miracle *blink blink*

Last two days..(monday) i was broke..,so went to BCB bank to withdraw my money using Maybank ATM card..there's only RM 20 balance left..so i withdraw it all.
After withdrawal,i took out my BCB ATM card..to check whether is there any cash left..As i know..there wouldn't be any cash..coz the balance left RM 0.09cents..(kewl ryte? haha)but i just want to check it for fun..so while checking the balance..it appears the amount.. Guess what??! "Balance enquiry RM 2,390.09". HUH??!! i was so surprised!!! How come i have so much money?! the last time i check my balance was RM0.09cents. Impossible my family or friends deposit money for me.. No one knows i've this BCB account..accept my teddy.. hmm..if they know,they don't have my account number too.
That BCB account is for PTPTN loan..Errr..if PTPTN deposit money for me,the most i'll get is RM 700 ONLY! RM 700 ONLY!! The RM 700 is pocket money* for the whole course 2 1/2 years! Usually PTPTN will deposit the amount of money to my college tht i borrowed for the diploma course.. hmm.. weird rite? RM 2k plus leh.. such a miracle.. Wonder where it comes from...??? haha.. So the day after that,i went to BCB bank..to withdraw some cash.. HuHu..~ =P Now i can buy a Kewl digital camera for my Photography subject!! yay..!! lalala..

nobody

aihz.. *OucHHhh!!!* me ain't in a mood.. feel like talking to someone.. Jaime..where are you?! sighh...~ sob sob.. frustrated la.. my mind keep spinning.. *round..round* =(

peps out there.. i'm in love in this song..

-Standing in the eyes of the world-
Pahit getir hidup... dan pengorbanan
Terpaksa dihadapi, demi kejayaan
Terdidik sejak mula, tabah berusaha
Tanpa cuba melangkah, tak kemana
Di mana kau berada
Pencapaian tak tiba dengan mudah

Kini "Standing In The Eyes Of The World"
Hanyalah selangkah dari nyata
Keazaman membara dijiwa
Menanti saat bebas merdeka
Tiba masa kau melangkah gagah
Bersemangat ke arah matlamat sedaya upaya
Engkau terunggul
Wajar "Standing In The Eyes Of The World"

Harapan yang pernah terkulai layu
Kembali segar mekar bawah bayanganmu
Setiap manusia ingin berjaya
Namun tak semua miliki tuah
Engkau menghampirinya
Kesempatan telah pun tiba...

yeap!!

Kinda bored rite now.. got nothing to do.. hmm.. wonder what's everyone doing rite now.. my bf? yam cha with his frens. jaime? in korea.. coming back this thursday kua.. kee? im chatting with her rite now! ehee.. vkie? hmm..no idea le.. sure sleep.. while leen? erm.. guess she's watching tv kua.. bla bla bla.. =p Urghh damn bored! got two assignments to be done.. Final next week.. & the week after that.. sem break!! wooHoO 1 week!! haiya.. got break also no difference la..all the time at home.. sleep.. got nothing to do ler.. seems like i'm a bored person.. hee =) hmm..its 1.50am now.. the nite is still young.. can't sleep la.. having some sleeping problem nowadays.. can't sleep early.. my bedtime is around 5sumthg morning.. kewl isn't tht?! weh..i'm getting fatter leh.. in a DIET process recently..but my mission failed ler..never slim..coz' keep eating..! urgh!! cannot la.. i must have the 'will power' ler.. really must success.. hmm..common sense la.. if gurl fat..guys don't like leh.. so hee.. u noe la.. rite? numsayin'..?! i must DIET la..for REAL! no jokes.. kla..thats all for today ..kinda lazy to blog.. Daa~

O'buds re-union

Hey,Sandra is back to update the blog!!!!!!! hahaha.. =p

hmm.. here's a photo of me n my old buds..



Last Saturday..(12/08/2006) had an outing with my o'buds at 'Friends Cafe'.. All of us there... jaime, vickie, leen, huey ying, sarah, lee ming, siok hua n me..!! Re-union?? hee.. its been such a long time we didnt meet.. especially leen.. I haven't see her for half a year.. till that nite.. goshh.. miss those moments.. sob..sob.. Unbelieveable la.. haha.. That nite was really great.. we were laughing.. chit chatting happily..all the way. Happy ever after..? hee~ Well,most of all..thanks to jaime for planning this outing.. if not..there won't be any outing till today.. Thanks dude!!
Leen is leaving soon..she's going to further her studies at Australia,Sydney. Around middle of next month she gonna leave.. I'm gonna miss her.. sigh~ No matter where we are.. wherever i go..i'll always carry our friendship along...there's always a place in my heart. =)

Daaaaaaaaaaa~

here am i again...!! i'm back to update my blog... hehe... hmm.. today is april fool day.. hehe.. its midnight now.. 1.10am.. just came back from my hubby's house.. went for swimming with him.. such a long time didn't swim already.. feel like going again.. hehe. hmm.. im hungry now.. house don't have food la.. feel like calling up my dear to go for supper.. but nahhh..don't want disturb him la.. give him sum space. Hm.. im kinda bored here.. my mid term break gonna end soon.. n i haven't complete my assignment yet.. quite lazy to do it ler.. i did 40% of it dy..consider not bad le. *ehehe*
Ohh yea.. i got a new hair style.. i perm my hair.. hmm.. guess it doesn't suits me.. straight hair better. aihzz.. my hair now.. looks like.. really NYONYA! sheeshh.. haha.. Hmm.. aihzz.. stress la.. HuH??! watelse.. studies.. n im FAT!! i hate to be FAT!! so no matter wat.. i must have the strong will power to on diet.. become HOT CHICK... ehehe.. always dream of that.. hopefully i can.. la la la..~
Err.. wat to say sumore..? hmm.. oh yea.. im saving money.. wanted to buy guitar for my dear dear or either couple rings. hmm.. which one ahh? nvm la.. save money till Rm 300 or 400 plus. mm... just wana make my dear dreams come true la.. he's my lover.. 2getha.. 4eva!

Valentine...~ -Be MiNe-

Well, Valentine just over.. 14th Feb.
The day before Vday...,me n my bf went to 'paradise',klebang.. hehe went to have our Vday eve dinner! my bf wore his outfit which the first time we met each other.(reminds me of the memories tht we first time met..Aouu..so SWEET!!)
hmm.. i bought for him a 'Jordan' nike shirt.. he lurves it very much!! hehe.. On Vday..,i make surprises for him too! i put some balloons pink and red in colour on his bed.. n a 'toblerone V chocolates n a hand made love decoration thgy. Plus.., a V cake too!! its 'orange cream' cake! huhuu~ its our favourite cake!!
Hmm.. my bf gave me a Vcard..which is a hand made card by himself. its simple n nice!! i'm lovin' it!! He didnt get anythg for me..thts really doesnt matter. i don't mind.. honestly. i understand his situation..he had financial prob. mm.. i just hope n pray that we'll be 2getha till the end.. n our love for each other will not fade. Well..if possible..i wana marry him.. (hhehe.. *dreaming?* ) hopefully la. its destiny.. i love him more than anythg. its more than words.. Everyday i love him More and More!! he's my perfect soulmate.. Nway..,just wana let him know that.. i'll always be there for him.. watever happens i'll stand by ur side supporting u!!
-Lurve, sandra.-