HATE ME TODAY!

Was very lonely for these few days.. when i'm isolated/lonely.. i'll start bugging/messaging/calling my bf.. & he'll get annoyed/irritated...then he'll scold me..& i'll start CRYING..hiding myself in the room..& cried.. after that,i'll take my scooter.. & ride almost half of Malacca..scooter ride*.. all alone.. just to release sadness..stress..etc.
Its 1.30am now..Actually,i just came back from Scooter ride*.. sighh.. was just scolded by my bf several hours ago.. very sad.. I'm so not used to the environment of..boredom..lonely/isolated.. I wish that my mum is staying in Malacca.. Missing her so much!! if that happens..i won't bug anyone when i'm bored/isolated..coz' my mum is there.. Whenever my mum is there..i won't feel bored..coz' i can tag her along wherever she goes when im bored..Is not that me & my mum very close..is that..Duno how to explain.. err.. its like..when she going out..then i tag along..coz' i dont really like to be Close up at home..doing ntg.. meanwhile..i can take a stroll or car ride.. numsayin'..??
SANDRA..i'm a person who don't like to be scold..i'm soft in the inner but external..tough. that's why..i'm an emotional person..who pours the rains easily. Moreover,i'm a negative minded person..when something sad that happens to me..i always thought of commite suicide..& i tried to do it..but FAILED!! Am i weird?!
sighh.. i hate to have conflict with my bf..! thats the most sadness i'll have. WHY most sadness? coz he's the person that i love the most..he's my everything! whenever we have conflict..we never really contact each other for just sometime..but my finger ITCHY*..always grab the mobile..& half-hearted..whether to contact or not.. I know..end up..i contact. Feel like crying now.. Is there anyone who can lend a shoulder to me now..?? Reez..i really love you..lots! from the bottom of my heart!absolutely can't denied.. i don't mean to bug nor have conflict with you.. Do you know that,whenever we've conflict.. i cried. no lie. thats the tears of a girl who's so deeply in love..thats the truth! oh ya,i know you don't like me to be jiwang-jiwang.. but for this time..i really want to express my feelings.Yeap! ReEz..,sorry for keep repeating those mistakes..i know you are sick of that..Thanks for co-operate & bear with me.. I'm gonna make it sure for real..that..i won't & will never ever did that AGAIN! cross my heart ' swear to god ' down on my knees to you...

*To those readers & reez..if you read this post..guess you'll think i'm nuts & too JIWANG.. but what i wrote..was truly from my heart..suara hati*

signning off, BIG FAT LOSER SANDRA

tomorrow will be a New day...

tsk..tsk..tsk.. *LOL*

DAMN!!!! last two days.. while i was driving on my way to ReEz house... i was stop by two policemen... WHY?! coz... i drove through the traffic light which was 'RED'... *LOL* jahat ehh me... before i drove through.. i looked around already... then after passing by.. *lalala*.. suddenly a police kancil car was right behind me... *WOW* that was FAST!! just a blink.. then all of the sudden came out a police car.. hish!!! then i stop somewhere at the bukit baru taman.. & the policeman asked for my license... WaaAaa!! he said that.. he want to summon* ME!! goshhh.. i was terrified!! (i cannot kena summon ler..,coz once i kena..my license straight kena BATAL!!)then i told him.. 'selesai tepi la..' 'selesai tepi la..' guess what he said..? BERAPA NAK BAGI??! & i gave him RM50!! damn!! flew off dy my money!! sob..sob.. Jahat mia police!! purposely wana freak me out.. aihz... what to do.. i've broke the traffic rules.. =(

KL..KL..the Big City Of Dreams...!!

Me came back from Kuala Lumpur last night around 1 something in the morning.. supposed to arrive Melaka around 11pm but reez was very sleepy & tired while driving at the highway..so we drop by at Seremban R & R to take a nap and have our supper there. Pity Reez.. he was so tired..he drove alot.. & his foot was 'bengkak' due to shopping...coz' we walked alot.
That Tuesday Morning..went to pick Jaime,Vickie & Huey Ying to KLIA... Reez drove quite fast..coz afraid we can't make it to meet Leen.. PhewW!! thank god we make it!! Guess What??! when we arrive there.. Once we came out from the car.. All of us ran heading to the 'Departure area'.. *hahaha* While running...,Reez accidentally bang the car 'side mirror.. OUCH!! thats hurt!! Me & Reez were encouraging each other to run faster.. Run!! Faster..!!!! While Jaime,Vickie & Huey Ying were ahead of us already.. Goshh.. its like a Drama Movie..running in the airport heading to meet our Precious Friend.. nice moment la.. too bad we don't have video cam to shoot it.
Finally we reached.. & we met leen..spent afew minutes with her..& shot some pics too! *will upload the pics soon*
After that,its time for Leen to leave.. all of us walked her to the 'Departure entrance'.. before she enter..we shot one last pic with her & her KL friends too! after that,we hugged her &...... my tears started to flow... following by VicKie... *shy la* hahaha... *missing you,leen*
After sending her off..,we took our breakfast at McDonald,KLIA.
On our way back to Bukit Jalil..we got LOST!!! so..we planned to drop vickie at subang,INTI college..coz' she was late for class. After dropping vickie off.., we got lost AGAIN!!! until masuk Shah Alam.. So we asked for directions to Bukit Jalil... n finally... WeEeEEE!!! dah sampai!!! *heee* Later on.. Me,Reez,Jaime & Huey ying went to Midvalley megamall.. to have our lunch n shopping!!!(Jaime,thanks for the treat!!)after that.. jaime n huey ying went back.. so me & Reez went to Bukit bintang..SHOPPING!!! & the day after that.. me & Reez went to One Utama..SHOPPING AGAIN!! SHOP till We DROP!! we shop alot la.. *wink wink* =) hee...


*p/s:sorry for some errors..i'm not good at blogging*

NOKIA N70

LOOK AT THIS MOBILE PHONE!!!!!!!! It's NOKIA N70..N SERIES!! CoOl ryte??!! it's a '3G' phone bebehh!! huhuu...~ By early of next month i'll be getting that NOKIA N70!!! WoHoOOooOoooOOO!!!!!!!!! My mum coming back early of next month and she'll give me that N70 mobile phone!! Goshh!!! lalala...i'm on top of the world!!hmm.. but if i've the NOKIA N73 even better..its 'Carl Zeis' Optics..goshh it cost RM3k lehh.. damn expensive! mm.. =P

SPECIFICATIONS (N70)

Technical
Network: GSM 900 / 1800 / 1900 / WCDMA 2100
Form Factor: Block / Symbian OS 8.1
Dimensions: 109 x 53 x 22 mm
Weight: 126 g
Antenna: Internal
Talk Time:3.50
Standby Time: 264
Memory: 30 MB
Expandable Memory: RS-MMC
Main Screen: 262000 colors (TFT) 176 x 208 px
Camera: 2 MP / 1600 x 1200 px / 20X Zoom / Flash / Self-Timer / Video Recorder

Audio - Multimedia
MP3 Player, FM Radio, Speakerphone, Push-To-Talk, Ring Tones(64 chord / MP3), Streaming Multimedia(RealPlayer)
Wallpapers & Screen Savers: 176 x 208 px
Games: J2ME

Messaging
SMS, MMS, EMS, Email(POP3 / IMAP4 / SMTP), Chat

Applications
Calculator, Calendar, Wap(2.0 / Opera), To-Do List, Voice Commands

Connectivity
Bluetooth, High-Speed Data(EDGE / GPRS (Class 10), PC Sync

..days..

Been quite busy lately.. Hmm.. Leen is leaving soon..few days to go.. i wonder how she feel..? exicited? sad..? i'm gonna miss her..
Dude..,Lets not say "GOODBYE".. Unless we promise to say "HELLO" again,soon.. =( I've make something SPECIAL..VALUABLE..PRICELESS.. 'a little something for you to treasure'.. its still in process.. Me & ReEz stay up late to 'create' it for the past few days.. Thanks ReEzy dear..you've contribute alot!
Ohh ya,..don't worry,i'm giving those things to all my ciaobellaz friends too..You gurls are not forgotten.. [CIAOBELLAZ-->"there's always a place in my HEART!!"]
Hmm.. i'm putting on weight..have lots of appetite nowadays.. Eat alot.. Fast FOOD the most. hee.. Yesterday i went to TEAM hair studio.. Guess What?! i've High-lighted my HAIR!!! muahaha.. don't worry..its 'medium brown'.. Chill! i still looks like LOCAL MODERN 'ah mo'..*LOL*.. pHewW!! not typical chinese..'ah lian'la! yucks!! =P

Miracle *blink blink*

Last two days..(monday) i was broke..,so went to BCB bank to withdraw my money using Maybank ATM card..there's only RM 20 balance left..so i withdraw it all.
After withdrawal,i took out my BCB ATM card..to check whether is there any cash left..As i know..there wouldn't be any cash..coz the balance left RM 0.09cents..(kewl ryte? haha)but i just want to check it for fun..so while checking the balance..it appears the amount.. Guess what??! "Balance enquiry RM 2,390.09". HUH??!! i was so surprised!!! How come i have so much money?! the last time i check my balance was RM0.09cents. Impossible my family or friends deposit money for me.. No one knows i've this BCB account..accept my teddy.. hmm..if they know,they don't have my account number too.
That BCB account is for PTPTN loan..Errr..if PTPTN deposit money for me,the most i'll get is RM 700 ONLY! RM 700 ONLY!! The RM 700 is pocket money* for the whole course 2 1/2 years! Usually PTPTN will deposit the amount of money to my college tht i borrowed for the diploma course.. hmm.. weird rite? RM 2k plus leh.. such a miracle.. Wonder where it comes from...??? haha.. So the day after that,i went to BCB bank..to withdraw some cash.. HuHu..~ =P Now i can buy a Kewl digital camera for my Photography subject!! yay..!! lalala..